finally, i thank the heavens for stopping the rain and so now i have a lesser headache. havent been blogging since.. erm..okay two days? so shall write what 's been gg on the past two days...

anyway, today is new year's eve and I m as usual not making a big deal out of it. Haha. But nvm la, nxt yr I can make a big deal out of it alr. coz then it's after A's AND actually legal to drink and club. HAHA. more fun ehs?? yuppps.

so on friday night after ogl camp I went to pan pacific Brunch for their poolside bbq buffet again. I swear this hols I gain 5kg. OMG. This time its with neighbours frm 29, the principal (who has got horrible fashion sense and so gross too) and husband and uncle simon and wife. So the kids: me sis lianne and jerald, were seated at the far end and just ate lor. The lamp chop was better this time, the cod and salmon still good, brownie was good. wine was good. THE BEST IS STILL THE BEST. Pan pacific cheesecake was decadent man! Awesome. so melt in ur mouth goodness. It was just yummy. I could just pay to go eat their cheesecake alone. It is tt good. i dun even wanna attempt to describe it coz I will just ask Dad if we can go again. I hate it when dad gets drunk. Sheesh and he had to drag us out till so freaking late and then he said he will fetch me to trng early nxt morn but nooo he is too drunk and slping so late alr i still have to wake up earlier to take a bus to trng myself. DAMN TIRING. Thanks dad. NOT.

after two weeks of not touching my beloved racket and playing tennis, surprisingly not too bad a session ytrday! and then I started my new econs tuition at orchard caraven again. Not too bad la. Must pay attn in class May in the new year!!! No more doodling and dawdling and wat not. U met ur dream so tt's good enuf. and then went over to Second aunt's house (dad's side) for some gathering. erm okayy. the usual? haha. The only good stuff: popcorn and playing tt annoying finger music game on the comp. Like the arcade guitar and drums etc kinda game. It was quite fun but annoying if i missed alot. Haha. Boring ehs??

I wanna go out shopping a little. And then start the new year for studying. Coz it's A's and it is impt isnt it?? Hmmmm. And I wanna go out w Nessa tmr. coz it will be quite special for me. There are several others tt will make it special too if i spend it w them but different kinda special.

Now I am just trying to get my mind tuned properly once and for all for studying and not being so dreamy. ahh wells.

I've got Math tuition later in the evening and maybe I will be gg to change my handphone. finally. after three years. not tt i dun have a chance to change its coz i am too used to my 6230. my little darling. I can sms without even looking at the screen coz I am too familiar w it. Its a hard habit to break. HAHAHA.

WHEE. after so many years of not studying properly and slacking. maybe you noe, it will nice to actually be labelled as a nerd for once. And study my ass out. 'cuse my french. HAHA. i tink tt line is funny and absolutely nonsense.

AND MUM DOESNT ALLOW ME TO GET THE GOLD D&G PHONE V3i. EEKS. Talking abt how unsuitable it is for me. Erm, what?? ARGH. now i have to think of some other phone. which i clearly do not have an idea which i want for my new phone.

pouts.

pouts.

pouts.

i miss you nessa and i miss you nicole.

so my body clock actually woke me up at 7.30am. thanks man. so I had to get up and wash up and then go school for the last day of ogl camp. must be nice and go at least one day lahh. alr didnt go the past 2 days. haha. Anyway, I found out tt sis is in alpha too! and in OG1. LOL. and her fren in Maris Stella is in my OG. HEH HEH. *evil grins* Pple, permission granted to like totally bully her. HAHA. Not so evil la. just joking wat.

we just danced dhoom and did their new fun dance (which is retarded) and more mass dances. which of coz i quite sucked at lahh. I mean I was good at them then I forgotten most of the steps alr. SIGHS. just moving to the music is easier. Dance is fun lahh if u do it w a group of mad frens. Heh hehs. Dhoom is a couple dance. Erm, hello i need a guy partner and I dun find many guys in TJ who actually dances the steps well.

Finally I tink I found the solution to the New Blogger template problem by this guy on Blogskins forum. But of coz I dun understand wat the guy is typing, so I copy, paste and sent it to Sarah who is now helping me with my template. So very very soon, I can actually get a new template! HAHA. and link pple. and get my own tagboard. Yays.

And I just came back frm Parkway as well which I blew $21 on two Winnie the Pooh soft toys at the arcade. I had to keep pushing more sweets coz this time like abit more difficult ahs. So the other time I spent $4, this time its like retribution and had to spend more to get. SIGHS. this is very addictive. DUN START. Once u start, I dun think u can stop. Haha. I am nvr gg to do arcade again. unless its Disney Princesses, Barbie Dolls or sth very very very cute and I cant resist. Ohs and the remaining two of the series of tt Winnie the Pooh thingy. Hehs. *blushes*

Dun say I too much money okay, I am seriously broke like siao now. Dammit. Haii. I wanna go out though. Nessa Nessa. I miss you so much. =(

okay lah, to night got some dinner thingy at Pan Pacific Hotel again. Haha. SHIT. I M ON A DIET> which obviously dun seem to be working. Must wait till hols are over. And must just give my best into making my diet work. Wish me luck. and I cant wait to have a new temp.

its been raining almost all day. i miss bangkok and pattaya and cruise so so so much. I havent been in spore the past two weeks. i cant stand rain at all. I m definitely not a rain person. eeuch.

ohs and me and nessa been toking today! yays. i m happy alr. tt just made my day. doesnt it take simple stuff to make me happy? lol. oh wells. and i took a test she posted on her blog abt which horoscope sign is best for me. AHHHH. I m telling you my sense of clairvoyance is freaking strong and almost too scary. I am a Gemini lah and always prefered Geminian guys. Hahaha, especially those born in May and not June. I am weird la okay. I like my partner to be as sama sama with me as possible. But not too sama sama coz tt's just weird. Similar in the sense of facts not character I guess. Tt's the best way I can put it... Okay so I took the test and the best horoscope sign best for me is: GEMINI. yays!!! no surprise lahh.

May, the best match for your personality is Gemini

Gemini, the Twins (May 22 to June 21): This adaptable and lively partner is just your type. Initially, a Gemini may catch your eye with an intellectual remark or their flirtatious banter. But as you get to know them, you're more likely to be drawn to your Gemini's creativity and ability to find the fun in any situation. People born under this sign are typically outgoing types who love to spend time with a variety of people. In fact, a Gemini's social butterfly tendencies can make them seem flighty or even a bit erratic at times. However, Geminis are also top-notch thinkers with original ideas. In the bedroom, you'll find the Twins to be equally creative. As a result, they can be very engaging lovers. Overall, Geminis are innovators with an uncanny ability to stay balanced in chaotic situations.Although Gemini is your strongest Zodiac Match, your responses indicate there are a number of other astrological signs that you're highly compatible with.

eeee. tt's just so majorly WOW. lol.

anyway its still raining. bleagh. i hate rain and its snowing in aussie and jerusalam. maybe it will snow in spore soon!!! Keeping my hopes up!!! lol.

NYC is not experiencing snow now. Bangkok is as cold as can be. Everything is just so weird now. Mother Nature is really shifting ehs. I guess the human race really infuriated her enuf. Oops.

And next zodiac sign which is just as good for me:

A Scorpio is a great match for you. For one thing, you seem to really connect with the Scorpion's intensity and depth of feeling and to admire them for these qualities. You're also the kind who can be understanding about a Scorpio's tendency to overreact to things they perceive to be threats. After all, you're not going to let an occasional over-the-top moment to put a damper on your chances for romance. In fact, if you play your cards right, you and a Scorpio may find true love. You can pick out potential Scorpio partners by their self-confident carriage when they walk into a room and by their intense gazes. Unlike people who may be more timid or remote, most Scopios aren't afraid of a little eye contact. At times, the Scorpion's stare can make it seem as if they can see into your very soul. More often than not, they are supremely assured and determined. If they take a fancy to you, you can bet you'll be persistently and aggressively pursued. Scorpios are known for being unfamiliar with the concept of quitting. If a Scorpio's head turns in your direction, you'll probably be flattered by their heated pursuit. You can appreciate someone with that kind of confidence and command. It's also nice not to have to play hard to get, because the Scorpion isn't all about the chase. When a Scorpio decides what they want, they can be intent getting it. In fact, if the Scorpion feels an objective is in danger of being derailed, they can lash out quickly and strongly in effort to protect it. Scorpios are known for being exceedingly resourceful. So although they may not win the battle, this sign has every intention of winning the war. Strong and intent on their ideals, a Scorpio has a unique ability to focus on their purpose and see it through. You'll usually admire a Scorpio's convictions and support their ambitions. For you, it's probably a relief to find someone who knows what they want.

oooo. but i like geminians! haha super bias lahh. btw, i m feeling the after effects of cruise. can still feel abit of swaying and rocking like on the cruise. haha. must be karaoke too late. tsk may tsk. i wanna get out but its freaking raining. ARGH. pls pls pls. forgive us Mother Nature.

btw did i also say my mum brot back frm kfc in phuket their plastic plate. haha. now its in our toilet holding starcruise serviettes, actually is for us to dry our hands after we wash them. but its cool lah. Btw spore swensen's doesnt haf the flavour: Hearts Temptation. Its really good la. I love it so much man. EEEEEE. i can still taste it. i miss holidays...

MERRY CHRISTMAS 25th dec entry:

Hi everyone, I am now blogging on Microsoft Word and its day 2 of my cruise trip. Shall upload this the minute I land and am back home w my wireless connection. Yes yes, I actually brot my laptop w me onto the cruise. Hell, I even brot homework. But seriously kiddos, I need the time. Pls Lord, give me more time in my life. 24hours days are just not enuff! Right now its gg to be lunch time very soon and I m in the library staring out into the most breathtaking view. Check it out pple, I shall try to describe it as vividly as I can.

It is amazing how you look out and realize how lucky u are to be able to see these things. The sea stretched endlessly, its beautiful sea-greenish-blue water and then far away in the backdrop you’ve got huge white fluffy clouds and those postcard-ish blue sky and with hints of sun rays playing oh-so mischievously between the clouds. How I wish this is how I can actually study everyday in school. It will be heaven, and especially if you spend it with ur loved one, so so so romantic!!! (I m a diehard romantic lah.) Not that May has any lover to spend it with, but hey, I m not complaining. Any brother will do or besties. Haha. Love will look for you in the most unexpected way. Sometimes its staring at you right in ur face and you dun realise it. Sighs. I will find mine but maybe its not my time. I dun mind, since what I want is a long lasting beautiful love. Before I get all mushy mushy, I need to grouse and complain. Hahahaha. It's a girl thing and it's a May thing to complain about this. Sorry, coz I noe I am gg to sound like one of the brattiest kid u will ever come to hear of and also one who probably doesn't noe how lucky she is. (Not I dunno, however it usually slips my mind) So let me get it over and done with.

I need to get it out. OH for heaven’s sake, can daddy ever ever ever do things properly and on time and nvr ever last minute? spontaneity is all well and good but this is not good spontaneous fun. Only one time his spontaneity was fun is when he called home frm office one day and said we are gg Malacca the next day. We went there and didn even have a hotel booked BUT Uncle James had the VIP service and we both got suites right away. WHEE!!! Anyway, Daddy always does our cruise trips last minute. And for big events like Xmas (I rather spend it w u guys?) ITS ALWAYS BOOKED TO THE MAX. So in the end we always are on the waiting list. And we will get it BUT nvr nvr nvr a balcony room. HELLO. Imagine my humiliation of carrying a bluecard. Where's my red card? Nvm bluecard, a stateroom on the 11th floor is just alrite I guess BUT NO. I had to get one on the ohsoglorified level of number 6. NOT. ARGH. Seriously. Then when we realized that we get sixth and have no choice, its too late. Then when we are just abt gg in, the parents realise they have the power to change it. DUHS. They are VIPs (albeit them being silver and not gold or platinum). Just not twoweeks come once onto the cruise VIP. But they are in good company of those who do tt and so with their influence and bigheads in the cruise staff we noe, its almost too easy to get whatever we want. But sighs, they rmb it too late. So now, pple, I rather hang out in the library than my room. I was uberly well pissed by tt for two hours minimum.

Very soon, I will be disembarking for a day trip in Penang. I like Penang, it's a really nice country and the surname Khoo, the Khoo family there are the most influential. HAHAHAHA. YAY me! Yay Khoos! The Khoo land there with their heritage centre is so huge and manificient, almost like a Chinese palace. But not as huge, Chinese Palaces are huge. Anyway, last night was xmas eve, and today is xmas. I didn get any pressies today. But hey, I love my pressies frm rachie, sis, marsha! I suppose I have more but I cant get them in time for xmas. Haha. I just read my Snake horoscope for year 2007. I love horoscopes and this astrology stuff. They are just so… intriguing aren't they. Lol.

Tonight we’ll have a bbq dinner at the pool area if weather permits. And definitely tonight, I will go karaoke either alone or with my sister’s frens who r here as well. I spent 15bucks on arcade ytrday alr and given my recent trips to Shnaghai and Bangkok, I tink I spend enuf money alr. HAHAHA. Okay, too much. I blew Bangkok’s budget but but but I didn’t go over my Shanghai’s one. YAYS!!

And hopefully I wun spend over…one hundred? On this cruise trip. So I am like left w 85bucks. No thanks to arcade. I love arcade. I only do my motorbike and Daytona and Initial d games. I wun say I m damn good at it but for a girl, I m pretty good. HAHAHA. Onboard the cruise this time got a lot of ahlians and ahbengs and THAT IS JUST MAJORLY DISGUSTING. Like my sister said, who let them up?! HELLO??? Hahaha. I sound like a total beeyatch. Tmr I will b gg off cruise to phuket and then its back to spore. I cant wait! I promised Mun to go out w him and I have my majorly impt meeting w nessa darling. =)))

Sometimes, I wonder whats wrong w me. I m completely spas. Tt much I’ll admit. I noe what is expected of me. But most of the time I just ignore those angelic calls in my head. Instead I just go do sth completely rebellious. OOPs, as usual, I m jumping to another topic. With no advanced warning. But hey, its me! Like my sister’s frens said of me, and I just got to noe them ytrday, I m like so wild looking, yet so childish and squealy when I see soft toys, yet so tomboyish when I play all the arcade games but so girly with my dressing. I am a trueblue Gemini! They cant keep up w my personalities. But pple. Its not my fault. I m born like tt. And doesn’t just make ur life so much more exciting. How boring it will be for the world without such enigmatic pple. The cruise just dropped anchor and I gotta go very very soon, For now. Tata.

I pray I will be a better person after my many bad and wonderful experiences this yr. And not repeat the many mistakes I repeated again this yr. Dear Buddha and Goddess, forgive me for the mistakes I have done and allow me to repent. And let me be more selfassured and be confident tt I have gone on in life without a bf for the past 5 years and I do not need one. (erm..hehs, got exceptions la. Duhhs, its me we are toking abt. But only two only two.) Pls also allow me to concentrate on my studies and learn to transfer the amazing focus I have for my television and computer to my studies.

Back onboard after Penang:
Okayy, I am sorry. I officially blew my budget yet again. BUT heys, I haven’t been gg shoppin in Spore! Sighs, I got myself another kids Nike dunks. SO COOL. I love it!! Love both my Nike dunks. I think I am like collecting and not actually wearing them. Next year must wear more of them. Or else sit in the cabinet and collect dust. LOL. Thank goodness my feet quite small so I can wear kids stuff. Heh heh. AND I bot a High School Musical top, I tink its quite nice and Spore doesn’t haf them!! Ohs and I got a new Adidas watch. Yays to everything. I quite regret I didn’t get this really really pretty pair of Adidas yoga flats. You noe, Bardie dolls have a new range called My Scene dolls. And they have this new collaboration with Adidas and thus they have three new dolls wearing Adidas apparel! I bot the tennis one alr. Duhs. OMG. They have lifesize ones made ready for us to wear too!!! I saw the exact same pair of tennis shoes my doll is wearing and I really want the yoga doll pair of flats. Mummy says I go back spore then buy. OMG. Sighsss. I so regret. I want it now. What if spore doesn’t haf?! But I tink will have becoz I bot my doll in Spore. Now I wanna go home more than ever! To drag friends to comb the Adidas shops w me. Even if Mummy or Daddy doesn’t wanna buy them for me, I will pay for myself. And oh, I shant forget the inQbox at parkway’s clutch. I hope they still have it there. Fingers crossed.

The funny thing is, the minute we alighted at the shopping plaza, I declared I wanna watch a movie so tt I wun buy anything. In the end I think I spend quite a fair bit again. *blushes deep red* OOPS. Sorry daddy. But there’s the casino on cruise and I wish daddy the very best of luck. Gg karaoke later and probably shuffleboard. One of the coolest games onboard and totally FOC. But it’s a ship game. So we cant get them on land. Awwww. And I love cruise for another reason, they have Disney Channel!!! Yays!!! MTV and Disney Channel are on par. I cant decide which I like better. Hmmmmm…

Ohs, because the last time we toured Penang instead of shopping the whole day, so this time round we just shopped. We didn’t go visit the wonderful khoo place and pray at the Temples, especially the Reclining Buddha and the Snake Temple which I find really cool. And we didn’t get to eat Penang famous famous chendol. I dun eat chendol anywhere else (I swear). Only in Penang and only that stall. Not much for now except to grouse abt my beautiful Adidas flats. Ohs and I just ate the bbq dinner. Hell, three scoops of vanilla icecream w many toppings so sinful!!! But u shld noe I have a really sweet tooth! I cant resist desserts!!! Hence, my weight. I am so heavy and seriously fat okay. I cant stand it. I gained so much weight!!! I need to shed those pounds but its not gg to happen when I am on cruise so I have to wait again. Pls pls pls. I need the determination to resist temptation!!! Sweets and chocs and desserts temptation. What were you thinking huh? Tsk. EEKS. I feel fat and bloated and BLEAGH. I am gg to eat lesser again and pls u guys dun stop me or make me feel bad. I will exercise okay. I need a treadmill at home. Pouts. Daddy!!!

Btw I overheard the adults toking over lunch and they were saying how they actually have free balcony rooms but they always blocked abt ten for highrollers and they can call these highrollers one hour before the cruise sail off to ask if they wanna come up and have the rooms ready for them. ARGH. UNFAIRNESS. Just coz my daddy come up abt every few months and not every two weeks. *pouts and sulks* But some of Daddy’s cruise kakis come up every few weeks. And during the hols even more often. OMG. How lucky and terribly bad for the tummy. Btw, we’ve got Gala dinner tmr night and we have to dress up! Yays. I love dolling up. Last night xmas eve dinner we ate at Bella Vista, and after 8pm you have to dress up so my shorts not allowed…I went back to the cabin and put on tights and wore my heels and presto! Glam up right away! LOL. Even the manager who told me my shorts are not allowed agreed when she saw me again. Haha. She says I have style. WHEE! Thanks man.

More tmr!!!

26th Dec:
Early today we went down to Phuket and spend the day there till 4plus. There wasn’t much to do. I really do prefer Pattaya and Bangkok. And Phuket was so hot. Ouch. And since I bot this Reese's Nutrageous choc bar and it tasted really good so me and sis bot over ten bars this time. HAHA. Reese's good okayy!!! Btw, last night we sang karaoke till 2am. Mostly me and Darryl. Darryl came later and with his fren. Omg can. His fren is like freaking rich. He came up w 40 relatives and they all got balcony and suites even though they booked three days before. Okay, I am jealous. Haha. And his cousins were like trying to get to noe me and my sis and her frens. That’s like eww. Ok, so he is rich but not tt goodlooking can. Lol. Now I got to go get ready for gala night. Ciao.

27th Dec:
Had karaoke room last night till 1amplus. We had lotsa fun and goofed around alittle, Gala night was fun too. Took a loot of pics. I cant wait till the next time I am back up. As usual. No big surprise. Anyway, we are disembarking tonight. And I just played arcade w sis and her frens. Later karaoke again w Widi and Darryl. And most prob sis and frens. Smiles. And oh my god, my usual flat tummy has a little bulge alr. Dammit. I so need to diet. I know too skinny not good BUT let me at least lose a little weight. Say abt 5kg. okay?

Just had a major scare. Thot I lost my phone. OMG. I love my phone too much, too too much. Inside got so many contacts and holds a lot a lot of memories. A lot more than anything I owned I suppose. I found it under the bed. Phew. I hate staterooms. And rooms on lower levels. Gives me a major headache.

Anyway, last night after we had gala dinner we went up to 13th deck and “eat wind”, walked arnd and enjoy the sea breeze and night sky. I saw one of the top five best image of my life so far. It really is so cool I just stood there w Jac, Jas and Darryl staring. I didn’t have my laptop w me to record my feelings then and there so I typed it into my phone. I shall put it up here now:

The beautiful night sky looks looks like diamonds on a stretch of black satin. So soft the night sky w so many many stars of various brightness and shapes. Clustered in groups or in solitude. There was the Orion belt and darryl thot he sw a horoscope. There really was a lot of stars. I dun tink u can ever see it in Spore. Because we were so far out in the sea and there was nothing to obstruct anything. The sky was also so clear for us to be able to view such an exquisite thing. Stars were like little precious gems. It seems each held their own story waiting for us to discover them. Well, to me, the stars were there for me to choose for my different stages of my life and the very special moments. There was such an indescribable feeling in me, I felt truly so lucky to be able to witness such natural beauty. Then, the song “my heart will go on” just began playing in me. Well, I had hoped I had someone special to spend that moment w me but doing it alone was quite good too. Coz then the feelings under different circumstances will be very different and not at all same. One of my first stirrings was to feel a sudden overwhelming emotion to just wanna burst out into a slow romantic song and create a love story. It was truly breathtaking and like no other feeling I felt before. There were really so many of them and filled the otherwise bleak dark sky. Then the other side the sky had a sole moon with no stars hanging in a crescent shape. Then you look at the stretch of dark water below the moon and see a small part of the vast ocean with light. That was quite cool too. The best is definitely the stars. Very very...wow.
So, hope ur xmas had been as fun as mine and as memorable. Though I had hoped for a quiet one in spore w frens, but well, my quiet moments alone on cruise was fun too.

11:17pm:
I am back in spore. yays. but *^%$#%^frenster. coz I dunno why i cant enter. OOIII. MY FRENSTER!!! haiyo. but m so headachy. tsk. This trip stay sixth floor the feeling is quite horrible. I felt so groggy all the time. argh and the trip tis time is so woosy. i dun like man. Sheesh. and i admit i havent exactly be all civil to my parents and i better start doing so. coz well, its the right thing to do la. duhhs. and not spend so much. apparently dad's company is not doing so well. thanks man fatguy. its all ur fault. and dad's beginning to smoke again. fcuk. We tried so hard to get him to quit and now he starts again. after so many years. i feel pissed.

heyys. i m back frm yet another trip to bangkok and as usual I blew my budget. oh god. anyway i will nvr ever regret gg on this trip bcoz if i didnt go i will nvr have realised tt as long as you have hope, it will happen one day. No matter how specific how crazy ur dream might be, as long as u go on believing in it, it will come true one day. Thank you up there for letting me live this long just to have tt moment of utter pleasant surprise and happiness.

Ohs and this trip is actually fun!!! we met like a distant relative of family. I went on this trip w Mummy, sis, Godma, Clara and her mum. First time I go Bangkok in many years in a tour group. So Hi there Emily and family! Keep in touch! Family after all. lol. and new friend. coz me, sis and couz only got three ppl. play dai di got four nicer la (pssst... above 40yrolds do not apply to this) so new kaki. Hi Jeremy! LOL. U guys knowing me well enuff will know i will rather go shopping than doing anything else but heys, we gotta give and take! So I admit for once I did wanna kick back and let my legs rest. And not do so much shopping. After all, wth only ONE free and easy day to shop in Bangkok but me&sis still managed to blow S$575 in Roxy alone and thus, i am now also owning Thailand's Roxy membership card. HAH. I love roxy. SMILES. This trip is fun in a different sorta way than shanghai. BUT HEY, all the trips I've been to (which is alot), only one been quite bad which is to HongKong. The rest are all memorable of some sort. nvm i've been to the same place a lot of times.

a quick recap=>

Day One: Touched down in Bangkok then go slp in a great hotel with big rooms. After slp, we left the hotel for Pattaya. In the midst we visited places. at night went a little shopping but boring la.. GOT DUNKIN DONUTS THOUGH!!!

Day Two: In Pattaya, and went to the beautiful Coral Island with great water and sand. I am really noob at the blog stuff so once I figure everything out I will upload pics but in the meantime, frenster has them, HAHA. So anyway, i did parasailing and bananaboat. OMG. Parasailing gave me a kind of feeling I have never felt before. no not true love, but one of freedom and complete ecstasy. IT WAS TRULY BRILLIANT. bananaboat was alrite. Fun, but i did it when i was really young before. Anyway, this trip is like relieving some childhood memories for me lahh. So great fun and we shopped alittle and the rest of the grp went to watch the TRANSVESITE show la. I watched before and so didn go but saw some of them outside taking photos before the show started. SO PRETTY, drools. I M MAJORLY JEALOUS. Pattaya stuff are quite ex ok and not tt nice.

Day Three: On the way to Bangkok again, we stopped at Dreamworld the amusement park BUT it was not highly exciting. Even Genting beats it lahh. But still childhood memories. I got my first candyfloss in god-noes-how-long. YAYS. And we stopped at a number of places before gg back to nice hotel w big rooms and gg to Suan Lum Night Market. BORING. i want my chatuchak!!!!!!! whines and pouts. HAHAHA. okokok, den a good slp. BUT didn slp late the next morning.

Day Four: FREE AND EASY. baby, u have no idea wat six females put together can achieve. anyway. we are like the first out of the hotel and prob the last back and we didn even go back to the hotel half way. We just shopped straight on. Then back to the hotel at arnd 9/10pm. Packed till late and then slp. Ate dinner at Bangkok's best jap place Fuji restaurant with all the amazing food. Grilled Salmon belly. YUMMS. I LOVE IT. I ate till my tummy ached. AND I GOT DUNKIN DONUTS!!!

Day Five: got woken up unneccessarily. so may is not very happy as u can well imagine. BUT we went shopping again even though we have to leave the hotel by 1pm. HAHAHA. more roxy stuff. and we actually squueezed all six of ourselves into one small tut-tut! BELIEVE IT PPLE. Tut-tut can squeeze six pple!!!! so then we left Bangkok to go home to Spore. en route I saw sth I really wanted to get in MBK. the huge chupachups lollipop. HUGE GIGANTIC. AHHH so cute. but mummy says no r u mad? haha im mad!! but I got a Marie the cat soft toy instead. She's so cute. what a darling!! Guess hu got the garguantula lollipop. Jeremy got it and he ate it. SERIOUSLY. 5 hours and he only finished the groove. well done. AND I MISS UNCLE KITTI. he is our tourguide and he rocks. Lotsa loves!!!

IT was quite sad la. Bangkok's weather and Pattaya's has been awesome so far so cold and air-connish. FIRST TIME GO BANGKOK NO SWEAT MAN. HAHAHAHA. briliant weather and since I didn bring jacket, I tolerated the cold like mad and then finally i got the excuse to get a Roxy jacket!!! YAYS. so now, I wanna go shopping in spore and i feel so out in spore like nvr spend enuf time arnd here. HAHAHA. i miss u spore!!! LOL.

Today had tt lime fleamrket thingy. it kinda sucked la. so boring and it rained and well argh. but heyys. still didnt regret it. experience lah. wat were u thinking? and my frens say wanna go in the end only marsh and wendy came. haha and they didnt get anything. Not bad Jeremy, quite guai ah. U actually came. HAHAHA.

so ya tmr i m gg to cruise SSV as usual. Wats a holiday without a trip on cruise right? YAYS. and hopefully, i get my fairytale ending. SMILES AND A MERRY XMAS TO ALL. I love you all darlings (ehhs, two guys with these specific nicknames lahhs.) and dearies (all my besties and frens) and brothers (i miss u guys so much!!) and babies (ermms, the dogs i like and the barbiedolls i haf? and the soft toys and watever not tt is cute and doll/softtoy-like) and honeybuns (honoured not, you r the one and only honeybuns I have). MUACKS HUGS LOVES. dun miss me too much but i miss you all the same.

here i m again! SMILES. i finally finish the price list! but there's a new one coming.

what i m gg to get in Bangkok:

a nice dress
Stilletoes (i m saving up for a pair of aldo but in the meantime...)
Roxy stuff
ACCESSORIES (i want more serious bling! lol. bloody bimbotic.)
denim shorts
khaki shorts
canopy
BAGS ( if not, i will go get the clutch i saw the other day in inQbox at parkway!)

and and and...holy cow, we'll just go and see what i like and can get. HAHA.

There, life's alot easier. but I like lists. Once, I even did a list of what lists i wanna do. HAHAHA. I am fully a list kinda person. u shld see the many notebooks i have and in there I wrote lotsa lists! not to count those i wrote on foolscap and throw them away later. lol. sis tinks i m mad.

You know wat. I tink everything happens in my life for a reason. and sometimes its a bit scary how things work and the fate and god and heavens etc etc. how coincidental and all tt. hmmm... so there must be a reason for my bad results. I gotta figure tt one out now. In the meantime, my only wish for the new year is to be able to actually sustain my mood of studying and actually pay attn and be focussed abt studying. I want good results for my A lvls. Like a Chinese saying goes, you take three days to learn bad things but it will take you three years to become good again. I hope i can sustain my determination to become good again. and succeed in what i set out to achieve.

Dreams are dreams. reality is reality so i gotta face up to it and stop living in my little dream. okayy, not little dream. very extensive dreams. HAHA.

AND I JUST SAW ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BARBIE DOLLS. omfg. it is truly breathtaking. DADDY I WANT ONE!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. omg. it is so beautiful. it is just so OMG. Noir et Blanc Barbie doll and the Rhapsody in New York Barbie doll. *speechless* i dun care. I tink I m gg to get one myself, screw the aldo shoes. I will get the Barbie anytime!!! oh man. In case u haven't figured it out, i m still totally into barbie dolls and well, dolls. Not those chucky scary dolls. some Blythe dolls are cute though!!! I really wanna buy the Roxy edition one.

Okayy, i gtg and do somemore work and stare at some more gorgeous barbie dolls. SMILES.

OMG!!! Project Runway Season3 winner: JEFFERY. he was like my favourite all the way and despite all that happened, i totally believed he will win it and boy, did he nail it!!! did u see his fantastic collection for the Olympus fashion week. omg!!! jeffery is the king!!! totally. okayy, i sound like a total airhead and bimbo now. haha. hu cares! jeffery won!!! and his lil baby boy is so cute!!!

ytrday i went out w my cousins! though a short while but hey, i loved their company still. we need to kbox soon kiddos!!!! then we will definitely have a rocking time! yays. i cant wait!!! *claps hands very excitedly*

tomorrow night i shall be off to bangkok/pattaya! watch out thailand! LOL. i m so excited...and i packed alr! no surprises there coz i m such an organised freak. =P and then i will be back for the FLEAMARKET and then go off to cruise. but now i m in daddy's office working. typing price lists. if tt fatguy&co. left and be nice abt it i wldnt haf to do those lists BUT they had to go AND deleted all their files. so the files r lost and we have to get it back so i have to do it. haiii...

btw, i cant wait till i get back frm everything too coz then i can finally meet up with my bestest bud!!! wheeness!!! i miss you lots dearie!!! and also, nicole will be back by 27th jan. tt i cant wait too!!!

i cant seem to wait ehs. HAHA. impatient mayy. like an excited lil kid. this is a very excited entry. haha. yes excited, not exciting.

i m so psyched. but i still feel pathetic. still in coldturkey trying to eat lesser. had an interesting convo w a fren just now and he reminded me of how insecure we all are abt looks. no thanks to the media. seriously. try as hrad as i might not to think abt my weight and love myself for hu i m, but NO. its just so so hard. like the invisible pressure for me to look skinnier and to look good in my terms.

and my jie Serena is gonna do my temporary template for me! yays jie! thanks Rach for trying to complete my complicated one!! =P

tmr early morning got trng. and i need to clean my room coz its so dusty again BEFORE i go off so tt when i return it will be a lil dusty again and i will clean it again. later i dun clean it and it gets hella dusty then tt will be tough. sighs. i wanna go parkway again. haha go play arcade thingy! =x

ohs and i m like getting hooked on 987 fm instead of 933 now. used to go intot he car and get dad to switch it to 933 fm. but ever since i tried 987 fm with their "muttons in the morning", hahaa. funniness rules!! they r just hilarious and i love them when they go calling pple and mutton-ing them. hah. even dad likes it! and he doesn change to his news channel thingy anymore!!!

ALRITEY. i shall go back to typing the price lists now! laterr~
if i dun come online tonight or tmr then it will probably a week later!!! and i will update you all on my upcoming trip! smiles. lotsa love pple!!! have a great hols. =D

ytrday was sis' bday. so happy belated bday!!! anyways, i also lost my tennis match. couldn't run much for the ball due to immense discomfort. haii. nvm, shall learn frm it and work for the next tournie. whoosh.

its late once again and i can't sleep. this time i think it is due to my new tightening of braces (which is red and green now! xmas colours) AND my discomfort of WEIGHT GAIN. horror of horrors. I gained weight over the past few months when i wasn't working out much and basically just kept eating due to stress and studying. NOT GOOD. now its like cold turkey trying to claw back into the healthy thing. God please give me the strength to forget the wonderous taste of chocolate and sweet indulgence of ice cream. Okayy, very sinful but i have one of the sweetest tooth around. seriously. Tt's my downfall. definitely that. because it is just so so hard to give up those utterly fantastic dunkin donuts and ben&jerry's and white toblerone. Just a few of my favourite. Have you tried the desserts on Superstar Virgo, at the marmaladepantry, and and and. argh. cannot write them down. m u s t-r e s i s t-t e m p t a t i o n. the look of it the thot of it the sight of it just make me go weak in the knees. NO. i shall have to kick my bad habit and eat healthier snacks too. but i m gg bangkok and cruise. two places with yummy food. yummy yummy yummy food. i shld go gym on cruise and play more arcade and sing more karaoke instead of sitting arnd in the room. But i also wanna do homework on cruise. abit tough ehs the decision. tsk tsk.

so frm tmr onwards i shall vow to restart my braces diet. liquid food again. which i dun really mind. really. then i gotta go tone those muscles after i lose the fats. one of the braces bracket thingy came off again. must be the small lamb chop i ate at Keyaki Bar at Panpac the other day or the many apples i just chomped on. so Dr. Loh went on and on abt how i gotta eat food tt requires me to chew less. alritey. enough w the guilt trip!!! lol. so there we go, the stress and discomfort of knowing u gained weight weighs me down so i cnt slp. sighhhs.

not to mention my mother is gg on w her guilt trip of my horrid results and not doing any revision at all. okiedoks mummy. i did gp homework today. hows tt?? haiii. i m, to be very honest, scared to the numbness for my a lvls and my results and almost zilch knowledge of wats gg on in lectures. part of me wants to repeat j1 but i definitely lack the courage. brought up in a very realistic family so everything's all abt face and results. tsk. but hey, being cynical isnt all tt bad sometimes.

ohs, and right, to one person who i recently met again after quite a long time, i guess i kinda freaked the person out. HAHA. it is funny come to tink abt it. ohwells. did i tell you a great news. i went to the parkway arcade and did the candy thingy and actually got the winniethepooh soft toy after only four tries. yippee!! better than tt tigger which i didnt get at suntec even after ten tries. SHEESH. ohs and sis got me this lovely sweet heart shape necklace and matching bracelet!!! its super princessy! hahaha.

and theres trng tmr. in school. far far away. maybe it will rain! before i go of coz. or maybe i can go then go pp for lunch and maybe drag sis to arcade if shes gg trng w me.

SUNDAY NIGHT...bangkok/pattaya! baby, its shopping time. LOL.
i hope i see outfitters teeshirts there! their lines are way funny!!!
roxy there is also cheaper so happiness. and all the other goodies.
did i mention before how fabulous their popular Japanese food chain is? Its called Fuji, and the food is just to die for. serious. so fresh and cooked to near perfection. I m writing this w several specific dishes in mind and the most mouthwatering one is definitely the salmonstick thingy. (shoot i forgot the name) hopefully without daddy there this time we can still go sky bar. but i highly doubt so. it is one of the most beautiful places in the world. and i have yet to taste thier mojito. their margarita was good. but i dun like salty stuff much so the salt didnt sit well with me. thats the problem w cocktails.

haii. i miss holidaying with daddy. its all that fatguy's fault. my sister has taken to calling the person fatguy so i will just b lazy and take her nickname for him too. ARGH. i want my old daddy back. the one who actually quit smoking and stayed tt way, the daddy who drank lots but still lesser than he did now. ARGH. i fully blame fatguy for the problems he caused to the office/company and everything else that comes along w the split. i mean, hey! the company was making money and doing well, why ruin a good thing?! now daddy's working so much more and i dun see him alot, even less than usual. haiii. wat idiots pple can be sometimes, when things amount to power and wealth. so channel8 drama.




BITCHY IS MY MIDDLE NAME.
YOU BETTER MAKE MORE THAN I CAN SPEND.
etc etc. i love the lines. so hilarious and just so bitchy. HAHA.
but sometimes the ones i like mummy doesnt give the nod of approval if shes with me. sighs.

okok, i feel the eyelids gettng heavier but i feel like throwing up and still feel so disgusted w myself.

sheesh. i m not in a really good mood as you can probably tell from the first word of this entry. I mean seriously, whose freaking bright idea was it to make giftwrapping our CIP. Freaking boring and wth, i m like always getting kena scolded or bearing the brunt of the person-in-charge's not-so-good mood. erms, hello, i dun care how old u fcuking are or how senior u r compared to me, no one died and made you the boss of me so dun give me the crap tt says its my fault the communication broke down somewhere and blame me for whatever coz well, i dun give a shit. now i m in a bad mood too. thanks, it's not my fault u wanna get volunteers. and not my fault, it's the holidays and i have tournament and then won't be in spore for the next two weeks or sth. well, better me than you sucker. and everyone is not free so the schedule u did is not so good for everyone and you have to make changes. sheesh. enuff said. she's not worth it.

mum on the other hand is so breathing down my neck on how i m on the comp all the time and i haven done any work. hmmms, let's see, i got PW for the first two weeks of hols, thne had to go shanghai, then had to go dad's office to work and then i have tennis and now i m leaving soon again till 27th. but will be back on 22nd night to 24th evening. ooo, ya sure i do slack. but hell, its quite tiring u noe. tennis and work. ya ya ya, then the adults are saying social life are not important etc etc. OKAY, i get it.

How about for the next year I just don't hang out ok? and be a hermit crab, no friends and all i do is study. then i wanna lose weight she also dun allow, keep asking me to eat. i wanna eat i eat, i dun want to eat i dun eat. easy rite?
but no she wanna control all aspects of my life. as usual. no surprise.

okay i tink i grouse enough for one day. i need to go bathe now. and try to be happier and not let an old bitch ruin my day. the old bitch is not my mother. even though i hate her sometimes, she is still mummy and loves me lots. so we shall just maintain a lovehate relationship. hehs. i noe she cares but sometimes as a teenager i hate nagging too. BUT THE OTHER WOMAN IS NOT MY MOTHER SO FCUK OFF BITCH.

hah. i feel better. too many bad words for one day alr. bad karma. gtg bathe and meditate! ttfn.


i cant wait for bangkok. be it many shopping or not. for now i started my diet today. MAINTAIN IT MAY. u can do it!!! yays and tmr is sis bday and tournie day!!! jia you!!!

booyeah. i'm back. been at panpacific hotel on Saturday night just staying for one night coz dad's got a free room coz he is a member of the hotel. HAH. it was not bad except dad drank lots and snored like a jackhammer. AND it was NOT a pleasant symphony. lol. so the three of us did not have a good sleep. duhhs. but me and sis played tennis on a $15perhour court at the hotel. =P ohs and just nice, marina square had their midnight shopping sale gg on saturday night so since it is linked to panpac, we shopped!!! i got a bebe teeshirt. yays. I LOVE bebe!!!!!

and today i just had cip at TM, gift wrapping when we really just sat arnd basically coz isetan and toysRus and minitoons offer free giftwrapping services SO even for charity, not alot of pple wanna pay to giftwrap their stuff. tt's singaporean for you! and i got myself this really pretty ballerina earrings! so huge and gorgeous!!!!! AHHHHHHH. okayy gg spas. and a marie the cat puzzle. i love marie!! she's such a cute cat!!! she's the next disney character i like after the princesses (minus snowwhite). hehs.

everyone is calling me a bimbo now. hah. coz almost everything i carry is pink. not bimbo okayyyy. i like other colours too! LOL. and i can do sth else rather than just shopping and strutting arnd asking stupid question like, what is tuna? isit somekindof chicken??? ERM HELLO? tuna is fish. goes well in a sandwich!!! try it.

and i m so freaking nervous for my match at kallang on wednesday (which is sis bday too.) I tell you this year i so spend a HELL lot on stuff and her bday and xmas pressies. add up to 100bucks or more i tink. shoot. ahhh!!!! everyone is making me nervous. sheesh. gotta go meditate again.

erm, rachie?? hows the blog temp. gg?? hopefully good!!!! HEHS. thanks dearie.

ohs an guess what!!!! i m gg to put in my best in forgetting icecream and chocs and those other delectable desserts and sweets. HAH. yes!!!! i hope i succeed coz they have been contributing to my expanding waistline. and and and the most impt thing is i had too much of good stuff this year, so i guess i wanna return some back, like not so good ah, to keep having good stuff. BAD KARMA!!!

OHS, i got xmas pressies alr!!! and gave them to some pple alr!!! yays, i hope they all liked theirs!!! and i sent xmas cards alr!!!! yays. i m just so efficient!! haha. nahs, only coz i m flying off early and wun be here for xmas too so send now and give now. hehs.


BTW PPLE ATTN ATTN!!!!!!!!! I m having a stall @ LIME fleamarket on 23rd dec, 1pm to 7pm. It's behind orchard cineleisure and selling alot of clothes and stuff. Mostly branded and also alot of brandnew clothes!!! All under $20 bucks so come on down and grab them before they r gone. SUPER GOOD BARGAIN OKAY!!! so must come down and support me ya?? THANKS!!!!!!

well gtg for now. ciaoo! niteynites.

no one will believe this. I mean, come on, everyone knows May never stays up this late when she is at home before. but here I am. at abt 2.30am, I am blogging.

Just can't seem to sleep!!!

Just had a party at the new MINT: museum of toys, opposite Raffles Hotel. My neighbour, uncle Kalvin is celebrating his 46th birthday there and then we went to Newton Circus till midnight. I didn't eat. YAYS, I congratulate myself for refraining from eating that deliciouslooking orlua at Newton. Lol.

But there is this huge problem. Dad is always getting himself so drunk and it's so embarassing watching him and then he kinda say those words to Mum that is like so hurting. WAT IS WRONG WIH HIM? argh. he so doesnt noe he is freaking drunk. I like fast cars but I fear for my life when Dad drives even being this wasted. Sheesh. I wonder what I can do to get him to quit drinking. 'coz of him, I hate beer. But I've got nothing against other form of alcohol, like wine, champagne and vodka. Ohwells, there's a little bias thing gg on there coz I love them. Lol. Daddy can be a great person sometimes but when he is drunk or in one of his bad crazy moods, godammit, i hate it. Sure, I can go, Daddy can I get that? and he does get it for me mostly. But in those moods, he is more stubborn than a mule. way more. But hey, hopefully he gets a scare like an illness and then he will stop. HOPEFULLY.

Ohs, and Daddy promised me some time ago I can have a great bday party when i turn 21!!!! OMG. but I kind of want one next year too. But it's gonna be quite hard. I wanted st.James Power Station but the uncle andrew says wait till i am 21. Thanks! I cant wait. Maybe next year I can get Zouk? But that's kinda boringgg. I have never clubbed before okayy but that doesnt mean I don't read or been in there for a looksee before.

I told myself that I am gg to meditate more often now. Must keep temper in check. HAHA. Good for tennis and my life. Ohs, and the guy-crazy May is fast being a thing of the past. Isn't tt great news girlfrens? LOL. But it's true. The two most important guys in my life are just now normal friends. I have decided with this quote in mind: If it's meant to be yours, no one can ever take it away from you. Hence, I thot there's no point in chasing after anything. BUT you gotta work hard for results ehs. =P PRESSURE. next year is Alevels alr!!!!! AHHH!!!!

Like Tursonov, exclamation points do make your point come across clearer sometimes.

and Cookie is starting to create more inconveniences in the family even though my sister doesn't wanna face up to it. well, it's true. we don't have a maid and we live in quite a big house. so it's already heavy duty for Mum (who is a clean freak). So there you go, imagine...
I mean sure she is cute, not gg to deny that fact, but argh, I so miss my life before the dog.

Got trng later at abt 8am so I need sleep but I cant sleep. I tink being single for so long is mad. For me, I mean. No one believes me. except for my bestbuds and closefrens. So goodenuf ehs? Haha, hang in there!! I just bought a teeshirt that reads: Think smart, Think single. Kinda true after what I've gone thru years ago. But heys, I dun regret that decision I made. It brot me to where I am today (not entirely the greatest BUT to me, I appreciate it.)

Did I tell you? I saw him after what, five years?! LOL at a bustop no less. But heys, that's fate for you. But nahs, we shall be friends. 5 years are alot to catch up on ya noe. 'nessa is a different story. I feel our bestfrens connection not missing. I dunno abt her though.

And TJ brot me Nicole and Marsha. Ahsi always been there. My four closest galpals. Its been quite a good year all in all but not much for the academic area. which again I need to pull up next year. May is gg to turn into a nerd!!! No longflowing hair (it will be tied up), no miniskirt (Going to wear my schskirt normally, well as normally as it allows). LOL. And those are my few resolutions for the next year. And the most important one is to actually stick to it.

The usual resolutions of losing weight, toning body, no scratching, focus in studies and also the new ones of behaviour in school(being nice to even PoisonIvy) and no-boys rule. But there's always exception for May. HAHA. Shan't tell you who or what the exceptions are.

well, that's it for this early early morning and May's first can'tsleep night of the holidays. chalet doesnt count coz no one sleeps at chalet till early morn!!

U guys out there have a great hols too ya? I love you all. No matter you hurt me or harmed me or hate me. Because I believe in karma and forgiveness is in my air due to Christmas. LOL. makes no sense at all. But that's me. I make some sense and sometimes I dun!!!!! All I want this Christmas (let's not include material wants): to be happier with my life and be a wonderful friend to everyone I cherish dearly whether I just found oyu back in my life or you've been here forever. Give me a second chance if I ever been mean to you or did whatever to you. HAH. Nicole&Marsha don't even infer this to you-know-who ahhs. Let's not jump to conclusions. May does really want to be a better person. *big blinking innocent eyes*

I think I can feel my eyelids getting a wee bit heavier...

i'm back and rach is helping me with the blog temp. yays rach!

black gold pink and bikinis. HAHS. click on the butt!!!

anyway i m helping out at dad's office to earn money(its not much) but basically to help out. and my sis whines about coming here. sheesh. its quite fun u noe. i mean, u can surf the web half the time and hence i can finally create a blog. ohs, and she plays neopets when she is supposed to work and she is, ok, smart enough to find the cubicle behind and hid behind it.

btw, I just got my spex draw. I have to play on my sister's birthday! AND it's against some TKGS junior. sheesh. I really hope to get thru tt. BUT I had to get a flu now! So i can't train ytrday!!! And my sister whines about gg for trng. ERM HELLO?? U train so u get better??? but then, there's some truth to TJ's trng being a wee bit slack. rach and hwee, please knock some sense ito her. HAH. Knock, literally, is not a bad idea. muahahhaa. I m just evil.

ohya, u will nvr guess what my sister did!!! She got a pair of blades and then realised she had forgotten how to blade AND she got all those guards WITH NO HELMET. HELLOO SIS!!! HELMET TO PROTECT UR HEAD IS WAYYYYY MORE IMPORTANT THAN SKINNING UR ELBOWS AND KNEES. concussion is baddd! but then wrist also quite important coz without wrist u can't play tennis. SHEESH. seriously sis. hmphs.

ohyaaaa, bad news. cookie the dog is one hell of a naughty dog. ya she is smart but! she bit my laptop wire!!! now i cant charge my laptop. argh!!! COOKIE, I WILL CANE U. tsk. can u believe her?! and she is the grossest dog ever. she's got a a fascination with tissue paper, clean or not. also, she ate a dirty cotton bud. bleagh. gross. SIS, can u pls teach your dog basic mannerisms and not how to walk and crawl and high-ten???

Alritey shall go back to typing the stacks of CAVALLO thingy. laterr!

Hi. May finally has a blog and the old blog is kaput. so forget gemayni.blogspot.com
sayymayydayy.blogspot.com is the new one=P i m spas. i gotta do up the blog now. laterr darlinggs.