Tuesday, January 2, 2007
i slept till my body woke me up. Not a bad slp but i had to wake up to wheeze and also had a weird dream. Not a bad one, just a weird but good in a sorta way. I dreamed I was in a place with lotsa snow and I owned two beautiful huskies. I dun rmb their names when I woke up but they had names. It was a very comforting dream, like i felt truly contented in the world and nth in the world meant more to me than my huskies. So big and handsome and loyal. Both following me and playing in the snow with me. I was with family and a few ppl i noe but i dun recall. weird ehs? LOL.
so then I woke up and had a normal day. wanted to get Nessa or Jinying to catch a movie with me. But nessa nvr replied me still. Haii, shes such a mystery to me. Yet i love her wholly. I might be mad at her but still i forgive her real fast. love ya dearie. and i kinda chickened out smsing Jinying. Lol. dunno why also. Coz its all over alr and I haf no special feelings for him anymore. weird. so then I spent the day w family again. and i reserved my new phone-pink Z610i. I decided not to get the gold one coz well, i dun wanna live listening to my parents rant abt it for two months. so normal day. happy in a sort of way. i m not complaining.
sometimes i m sucha pathetic loser okayy, like i hardly go out w frens and even if i do its w Marsha. LOL. come to think abt it, i did go out alot w marsh. i need to go out w more pple. SO...PPLE ASK ME OUT!! LOL. i m fcking pathetic sounding now. shoot. NO LOR, i just like family. HAH. after A lvls lah. Not now, and i haf so many more years of my life to get out more. So watever. LOL.
so thinking back to 2006 (was selecting photos frm my trips in 2006 and pasting them in my 2007diary):
I am sure lucky to be in TJ, to meet my brothers and also to make so many new frenships tt have left an impact in my life one way or the other. Also, 2006 been a really sociable year man. Serious. But not so good in the studies. Friends and i didnt bond over studies, we bonded over food, slp, slacking, music, shopping, etc etc. And I found my best frens. and i travelled alot. Definitely made alot of trips last yr more than any. But small short trips la.
so after so many fun times, its definitely time to give back and settle down. yups. and also hopefully do more charity work like donate during flag days when i feel like it. LOL. sians.
i m rambling and i need to go to slp coz tmr need to wake up early early!!! sch is starting!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time flies. really.
why is it so hard to tell you my true feelings?
so difficult, so nervewrecking
they say this is a new century,
they dun mind when u make the first move
but it still feels weird.
even just thinking abt it.
why is tt so?
but then, u also realise they too are afraid.
of rejection, of losing the frenship.
just like you.
the world is a funny place and worked by a mysterious force.
but all i wanna noe is he my destiny?