Saturday, January 13, 2007
back frm tuition. chem tuition. freaking sians despite Derrick Chen being in the same tuition. WTH. damn freaky lahh. now in addition to taking bus rides together, he is now tuition mate. -.-
This is how I found out:
I was sitting in the class alone w two other guys whom I dunno frm dunno which JC and then phone rang. KIM POSSIBLE RING TONE!!! LOL. then i heard derrick's voice over the phone saying hi and asking where i m. Like hello, so random lahh. After I told him, then he was like come out. WTH. damn scary lahh. I swear its retribution for ka jiao-ing him over the orientation and pangsehing him today.
chem tuition was erm quite zzzzzz. SERIOSULY NEED TO WAKE UP. My organic chem knowledge is like ZILCH. ZERO. NADA. GONE CASE ALR. need to study!!!! Panic attack.
and sians, I quarrel with Mother today again. I just pekchek her again. Damn jialat lahh. Buay tahan. Her menopause getting worse I swear. SERIOUS. her moodswings are worse than mine. FCUK LAH. I have a lovehate relationship w her now. And I dun wan it to be this way ok. My god, but she just noes wat buttons to push lah.
ARGH.
I wanna be a better daughter and not argue w the 'rents so much.
I wanna be a more attentive student in class.
I wanna be a better sister to my sister BUT then I already quite good alr lahh. I buy alot of stuff for her all the time. -.-
I wanna stop blogging now and go study. But also abit tough.
I just wanna stop living sometimes. I do tink abt suicide and how I wld wanna die. But then I always shudder at the thot of actually dying before finding out whats my destiny like. But death is an intriuging thot. Wat really happens when u die? hmmm...
this is getting wayy too morbid.