Friday, January 19, 2007
hi.
i m back to blog today again. this is turning into a naughty habit i cant seem to kick! hmphs.
and i played RGS c div today. OMG. i lost to this nicole wathersurname. she is this caucasian looking girl and so cute and bubbly. HAHA. and she hits hard. and I lost 91 to her. Although the score super maluating, I actually did play well and if i won the sudden deaths we were in, I will probably win 93. I was hitting as hard as her and almost just as accurate. I lost mostly due to the sudden deaths and coz i only did abt 2 double faults and less than 20 unforced errors. so that's a good record.
so not having on a black face and instead being happy. and the food centre outside my hse is closing down and so no more nice ipoh horfun and jap food. so sadd... will miss the salmon fish head and saba. haiii. and yahh.
this week hasn been tt good. Largely due to the fact tt i lost stuff and a few disturbing news. Otherwise the fitness section cheered me up alot. I m alot fitter, in terms of running and also tennis where i m playing better. Gotta thank coach bernard for tt. I have learnt so much frm him in such a short while. Its amazing.
The other day i was talking to eugene low, and I guess it is kinda weird tt just entering the year 2007 when i m supposed to be 18 yrs old though not yet, I suddenly changed alot and matured so fast. its quite shocking discovering these new changes. quite good and pleasing though.
and heres a section of most recent convo i m having w chester and its quite thought provoking:
- Chester -says:you are a girl right
- Chester -says:duh!
- Chester -says:haha
- Chester -says:lets say you like this guy
- Chester -:but you have a gut feel the relationship wont work out
`mayy___ says:uh huh
`mayy___ says:then?
- Chester -says:what could attribute to that gut feel thing
`mayy___says:ermm.. i really wouldnt noe sometimes the gut feeling is so strong u cant shake it off then i might just actually listen to it. coz its after all women intution.
`mayy___ says:gut feeling r so hard to explain and being a gemini i have really strong gut feelings and mostly they r right lah so i try to listen to them. but coz i m also headstrong i also block out the gut feelings i dun like and end up hurting my self alot more
hmmm. tt actually is true. I mean come on how many times have i caused myself so many heartaches and disappointments in this short one yr and few mths? just coz I dun wanna listen to the feelings and innervoices and refused to look and acknowledge the signs out there in front of me. so stupid of me. so now coz a very recent similar refusal and of coz the eventual disappointment I m gg to try to live without any crushes and guys in my life. BROTHERS R NOT INCLUDED here. i will just miss u guys like crazy if i stop hanging out w u guys suddenly now.
and like wat xinhui said to me during math lect when i pon and sat w her on lt1 stage to chat: when we girls like some one we kinda overthink and do alot o assumptions. HAHA. i kinda agree w tt. dun u tink so?
hmmm. so like wat chester said also, things lost in tj will turn up so hopefully i get back my notebook!!! smiles. I m so worried.
and with effect from now, no guys in tj are worth it.
let me state the exceptions of close brothers: brandie, nic, billy, jonnie, mun, arief, syan, guang, martin, trip, kenny, ellery, ernest, chester, shannon, derrick. basically the guys i noe and actually tok to. YUPS. and of coz mustn forget my cutiepie1 sek and xinhui!!! HAHA. and my new tennis kaki trina. smiles. and my sis and nicole. NEW DOUBLES PAIR. JIA YOU. congrats on a good first game together today!!!! and wendy and sarah. smiles. and soph chew the blursotong.
so now. its A's and of coz my beloved tennis. and shopping, and food, and running.
and the passion of recovering lost stuff.
smiles. so emo. tsk me. I love my buddies. coz they r always there for me. no metter hu and no matter how long i haven seen u guys, I can randomly confide in you and i noe u will keep it for me and console me if i need it, i really appreciate it. No matter what happens, these random moments I will hold it inside me and think of it very often and smile at just the thot of it.