Thursday, January 11, 2007
Okayy, i know i m supposed to be studying now but i just felt like blogging...hehs. sorryyy. its been raining the whole day and pissing the hell out of me. ARGH. rain tmr lahhh. today wanted to follow sis to her theory lesson at funan and then study at TCC while she attends her lesson BUT no. it rained and killed my mood. I want COFFEE. ya kun kaya one also can. HEHS.
I M STILL JUNKING OKAYY. dammit. i m disgusted with myself. why is it so hard to not think abt food for a second. I swear after a lvls I m gg to work my ass off and take up yoga and belly dancing and dance classes. and happiness! I just watched MTV and danced in the bigbig living room. Favourtie pasttime. I love dancing but apparently mum doesnt share my passion in it and thinks tennis is so much better. HAH. making my thighs and calves look like Serena and Venus Williams is NOT A JOKE. argh.
and i slept at freaking 2 am last night and was in a daze today till 2plus and sch's gonna end alr so wats the point?! sheesh. and went home with Derrick today. Its nice to finally have someone to take the bus with. HEHS. and we need to meet up, nique chua!!! HMPHS. u blame me for gg on hols and i blame u for not replying my sms-es so we are even again. HEHS. i m maddd.
and omg u have no idea wat i did today to wake myself up. HAHA. its so embarassing thinking abt it. EEYER. i went gaga over one of my ec in sch and acted like a huge idiot. LOL.
KHOOMAYSZE STOP UR MADNESS. I COMMAND U TO STOP THINKING ABT GUYS AND STOP JUNKING AND ACTUALLY LISTEN TO UR INNER VOICE.
arghs. i want a new phone but I dunno which one i want. HEHS. coz Mum found a way to get me the motored RAZR then newpaper came up with this article tokingabt some new Nokia phone. PINK AND SLIM LIKE RAZR. HEHS. shld i or not............
okay tmr onwards rite. tmr yes tmr. i noe i say alot of tmr the past few days. i m gg to give the *no guy madness* rule my best shot, YES. i shld do tt and mug. abt junking. TMR I SHALL TRY TO LIVE OFF water. good no?
I CANT WAIT FOR A LVLS TO GO AWAY OUTTA MY LIFE. but i wanna do well also lahh. its very impt aiights? determines my university...
BYE BYE.
why isit you make me feel so guilty
guilty of just thinking abt you and
guilty of the torture i put myself up with,
guilty of the toxic i put in my body
creating a mess out of it.
why isit i cant seem to be sane when u r arnd...
life just got a whole lot more complicated.
i have the mind to stop my madness but
not the determination required.
help me
will you?