Thursday, January 25, 2007
stepping back:
I realised sometimes feeling too much is bad, having too much emotions is bad because it totally clouds ur head. And after feeling emo for two days alr, though today was definitely alot better, I realised that I was just so shrouded with bitterness. Which I really cannot figure out where it originates frm, this bitterness. May.. the meaning of May the name is "Bitterness within the heart". Not v good ehhs, haha.
And tt maybe he was more of a brother really and maybe I just felt tt way coz of his choice. But tt doesnt mean I m ready to face it now. coz I m bloody well not ready. So watever. But hey at least i got sth right!!! I dun like him in tt sense!!! BIG SMILES.
so my life is alittle less complicated.
also, besides that big problem tt has been bugging me, I realise sometimes I hurt myself becoz of my cockamamie theory of having eyecandies are alot more fun for sch life. Oh sure, the thrill of gg OMG he is there. but then I get so into it, and I m in it for the sake of just having that cheap thrill, and then I hear stuff and hurt myself. Now I wonder what the hell was I thinking? Need I go to such great lengths to hurt myself? well, of coz not!!!
and man, I just "read" a great love story and see the side of a guy being so deeply in love and doing almost everything for the girl. So sweet ahh!!!!!!!! Deeply touched. SMILES.
and Mummy bot me a fengshui snake 2007 book. which is cool. smiles. and I read some really interesting stuff.
and i pon pe and gp today so I like super had lotsa free time to spare. and i went to parkway and spent freaking ten bucks on nth in the arcade. i wanna complete my winnie the pooh set!!!!!!!!! Shoot I m addicted.
and i m addicted to blogging. and I am addicted to alot of stuff. and erm, I just wanna thank my buddies: JunJun, Billy, Nic, Grace, Regina(i totally cant wait to see you),for these few days to stay by me and of coz some new buddies/juniors I made.. I felt ur concern!! and especially my newly-nicknamed sweetiepie. haha. smile and be happy and I really enjoyed toking to you. cheers to more intellectual and deep convo!!!! LOL.
okay tmr got intrahse ALPHA captain's ball competition and 0906 will own and take home w us that $50 ben and jerry's voucher! watch out!!!! JIA YOU and i need to go slp and conserve energy. NITES.
*dives right into*bed with a smile*