Sunday, February 11, 2007
another personal crisis after seeing love handles and muffins. (muffins=backfats)
u noe wat. if bulimia works. then its fine if u dun overdo it right?? whats the diff between bulimia and anorexia anyway??
have u ever thot abt this:
wld u want to drown or burn to death?
wld u want to burn or freeze to death?
wld u want to drown or freeze to death?
interesting thots. i personally chose freezing. Burn is just painful and the way Jonnie described drowning sounds hurting too.
anyway, v day is coming up. and Regina just gave me a lovely bottle of three cookies her mum made(coz she is busy!!!) haha. THANKS. first vday pressie. Not counting the yupi strawberry gummy frm this girl in tuition.
btw congrats to Sis for doing well in her O's.
and of coz Shannon and Chester for doing incredibly well. Awww the sweetiepie called to share his goodnews. Just like Guang calling me last yr. So touched. HAHAHA. and rach and hwee and shaofang for doing well in their own right and being happy with their results.
I SERIOUSLY NEED DISCIPLINE IN MY FOOD INTAKE. U have no idea wat junk i put into myself. Coffee is not counted.
NO MORE THAN ONE CUBE OF CHOCS PER DAY. how abt tt??? good???
and eating one palmful of food for lunch and dinner. Breakfast I eat more.
and we had the collect old newspaper and clothes thingy today for sch and tmr I dun haf sch. SMILES.
I m getting depressed again. Fuck. I hate it. I hate hate hate hate hate these impt years (quote O lvls) SUCKS LAH. I blame myself.
SCREAMS.
maybe its not such a big loss to the world if I m not in it.
maybe its not worth going thru all this pain.
maybe its not because of me I am depressed over.
maybe its not what it seems.
maybe its not how I want it to turn out.
maybe its not good to have high expectations.
IT WILL ALL LEAD TO A VOLCANIC ERUPTION ONE DAY. This is a fair warning.