Thursday, March 15, 2007
You dont noe how devastatingly charming you are.
charming to me and probably no one else. i cant say here why u charm me. coz then it will no longer be my own private secret.
devastatingly because the things u say left me devastated. how so? i cant say. coz then it will no longer be the secret between the two of us.
i said before, i was gg to leave you alone and not get entangled in an ugly mess. i said i was gg to leave u in the state of friends but i just cant seem to stop tt. I m deeply enchanted with you. oh, u dunno how much.
no one shall ever noe.
ever felt u want to tell someone so much yet you cant? well, i didn noe how difficult it could be. until now. until now...
oh dear, its so tough. its killing me softly. slowly. painfully.
i m not jealous. i m not saying all that for personal reasons. oh noo...i can guarantee u tt. but sometimes i wish i was a bit more obvious, a bit more daring, a bit less caring, a bit less accomodating, a bit less friendly, a bit more truthful, a bit more cunning. but then u wun like it right?
oh gosh, why is it so hard? why why why???
i need help. i cant stand this!!! i dun wanna cry. i dun want to. but i just cant seem to stop the tears from filling my eyes and frm spilling out.
please fairy godmother, please guardian angel. send help before this eats me up and my heart will permanently freeze. i cant ever risk feeling again coz it hurts too much. i dun ever want to feel hurt again. coz i dun want to cry again. coz this is just plain stupid when u tink abt it.
no one shall ever noe the truth. no one shall ever noe the true me. coz frm this day on, its no longer mayy or the bimbotic bitchy princess u tink i m. its the iced version. who will not melt anytime soon. coz u dunno its u. u dunno anything. u dunno how much its hurting and its all becoz of u.