Saturday, March 17, 2007
its not that painful anymore. waitaminute, i tink the pain is all gone.
thank the heavens above.
finally, i realise tt i m happy the way i m. tt i dun need you to make my life any more complete. well, not now i mean and definitely not you. cackles. suddenly i feel so cold and emotionless. thats good. dun u tink so too? sometimes emotions are those kind of luxuries tt we can all go without. i can defnitely do without them now.
in my life and on court. tennis: calm and zenlike. breathe and take it as it comes.
for now, i m happy with meeting the fairytale. and being friends with everyone. the happy ending just won't arrive yet. and dun u ever tink i will give up on it. coz i wun. its just not me. i like my life to be fairytalish even though its quite a nightmare now. i mean there are parts of it thats so good yet there are parts that are just hellish. I would only wish it on my greatest enemies. lol.
so thats life for now.
thats mayy. only mayy.
I LOVE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!
having a personal growth moment here. the emoness are just poofed. over and done with.